KICK to the ribs!!!!

So here I am thinking I have a dainty little lady in my belly, lol.  Yeah right.  I'm sitting on the couch talking to my brother & BAM...she kicks me right in the ribs, lol.  I can't say that it hurt, but it definitely tickled.  It's only happened once, so I'm assuming that I said something she wasn't happy about, lol.  Wish I knew what that was.  She's become so busy, I love it.  She's not a big kicker, but she wiggles & moves a lot.  It's the most amazing thing.  I can not even describe the feeling, but it feels great.  I love knowing that she's moving around/comfy in there.  Every now & then I will get to feel kick from the outside, but it's rare.  I love it!!!  Although I'm sure as she gets bigger her kicks will be stronger & I may not be so excited then, lol. 

1st baby purchase

OK, so my family is very super stitious (sp?).  They do not believe the mother should be making purchases while she is pregnant.  I don't believe in it, but I'm trying to go along w/this.  Its very hard and today I caved.  Probably the one of the only purchases I'll make bc my family will have a fit, lol.  The other thing I'll get is her outfit for her newborn pics.  Anywho, my first little purchase is babylegs!!!  I'm so excited.  I know it's not much but I'm excited to be able to get her something.  I've already started recieving gifts so it's making her arrival super real, but it felt great to be able to get something for her myself.  I've always wanted the babylegs, but I didn't want to pay $12 a pair.  Thanks to a poster on thebump.com I found out about the big sale, soooo I got her a few pairs.  Hopefully some other colors will go on sale soon.  But until then, these are the ones I got for her.  Also 4 cute pairs of socks.  I so love all these cute girly things!!!

I do not want to complain but...

The back pain I am experiencing today is too much.  1st Monday it seemed that I was getting a cold, but I'm guessing I was just feeling crappy for a day.  Then yesterday afternoon my back started to hurt.  It continued through the night & by the time I woke up this morning, it had decided it is in charge today.  Sitting at my desk is becoming unbearable.  I'm hurting & I don't want to take any pain medication (I'm afraid of the effects on Suri, even though I was told I could take a tylenol).  I'm trying to make sure my posture is good & I have a pillow in my desk chair behind my back, but it's so not working.  I just want to go lay down & sleep.  Or at least attempt, bc I just toss/turn all night.  UGH....if I'm feeling like this at 21wks, what will I feel like at 30wks?  OMG, I shouldn't think about things like that.  Hoping this pain goes away.

On a happy note, I am 21wks today!!! YAY!!!  It does feel good to be farther along than the number of weeks I have left.  Only 19wks to go if Suri decides to show on time.  But from my experience, she is as stubborn as her parents, so this will definitely be interesting.....

Suri's gifts

I might have a few posts today it seems, lol.  Anywho, Suri recieved her 1st two gifts.  My wonderful niece Courtney bought her the cutest little onsie & socks.  I'm so in love w/it.  I can't wait for her to wear the onesie w/the rainbow socks.  It's just too cute.  And she also recieved a baby book from my co-worker Nicola.  It's the cutest thing.  I can record all her firsts in the book.  I'm guessing from here on out, all the gifts will be for her, lol.  Even this Christmas (although she won't be here yet) & my birthday.  My baby shower is actually a few days after my birthday & one of my girlfriends made it clear that my birthday gift will be something for Suri, lol.  It's so not about me anymore.

she kicked!!!

I am several days behind with this information, but it's still breaking news for me!!!  My little angel pie started being really active on Thanksgiving.  I had a lot of strong flutters, but that was about it.  Some time Friday afternoon she decided to really make her presence known.  I was laying on the couch watching tv & my right hand was resting on my belly.  Then I felt it.  She kicked me!!  I was thinking, did she kick me?  No, just my imagination.  I guess she felt my doubt because she did it again two more times.  I could actually feel it from the outside w/my hand.  I was too excited.  All I could do was smile/laugh.  It felt to so good to finally get kicks from her.  From then on she would not be still, lol.  I've probably had one or two more kicks since then, but for the most part I can just feel her moving.  I swear she is doing summersaults in there.  That's what it feels like to me.  And everytime it happens I get a bit of nasuea going on.  But it's ok, she's moving and I love it!!!  I can also now press on my belly and feel her.  Well at least where she is right now.  She's been laying in the front on my right side for a few days & I guess she's comfy there because she has not moved.  It's totally interferring w/my sleep, but I'm learing what I want doesn't matter, lol.  Glad I learned this lesson early!

20 weeks today!!!!!

I'm donig my happy dance.  I can't believe that today marks the halfway point.  I feel like just yesterday I found out that I'm pregnant, which by the way I'm still in total shock about this. I've always been told that w/o medical intervention I would never have a child.  I have a close friend that would always tell me that when God wants me to have a baby, I will be pregnant with or w/o the help of a doctor.  She was so right.  I sit here in amazement some days thinking that this belly is holding my little angel.  I get teary a lot thinking about it.  I'm actually tearing up as I type.  I feel totally blessed to even be able to conceive this precious gift.  And to have made it to 20wks w/her & she's healthy is an even bigger blessing.  We just have another 20wks to go and I will have the most awesome blessing of all, holding my baby girl in my arms. 

I just really can't believe this experience is half over.  It's gone by so quickly.  If the 1st 20wks went by this quick, how fast will the next 20wks go?  I am anxious to get her here, but I'm starting to enjoy being pregnant.  The aches & pains are a montster to deal with, but I love rubbing my belly and talking to her.  I feel flutters more regular now, so I know she's moving around in there.  Now I'm not saying that I want her to stay in longer than another 20wks, but I think I might miss being pregnant.  Wow, so amazing, lol.  20 WEEKS!!!!!

Be band

So I finally broke down & bought a be band this wknd. I also tried on maternity pants from Target, sooooo totally comfy. But I can't afford to pay $30 a pair. Especially needing a few pairs for work. Anywho, back to the be band. I wore it today for the 1st time. It wasn't too tight or too lose, fit kind of perfect. The annoying part is it rolled down a little at the top & slid up from my pants at the bottom. Hopefully that gets better. My only concern is as my belly grows, will the be band support it? Since my bottom half is not growing, I would rather not buy maternity pants. We'll see what happens in a few months. So for now the be band works....

I'm so over the moon happy!!!!!!

We're having a girl!!!!  I'm so excited & in complete disbelief.  I was NOT expecting the dr to say "it's a girl"!  I cried during the entire appt.  I'm so happy.  So in love.  She is the most beautiful baby.  I can't wait to meet her.  Now I can stop guessing & know that soon I'll be holding my precious baby girl.  The appt was amazing.  She was so busy & did not want to cooperate with the dr.  It took forever to get pictures of her heart.  But she was totally adorable while being stubborn.  I have the cutest pic of her sucking her thumb!  I love it!  Ms Suri Lillian Rae Jacobs will be here soon!!  Awwww, mommy loves you so very much.

hb 148
weight 11oz
measuring 19w5d (I'm 19w2d)
long legs/feet (she might be tall like her daddy)

Gas or baby?

I'm not really sure how I'm supposed to know.  I'm just sitting here & I felt this fluttering around my belly button.  I don't even know if my baby is that high yet, I'm terrible.  It's not the 1st time I've felt the fluttering, I feel it in different places & have felt it lower than my belly button, but I'm just not sure if it's the baby.  I don't want to get all excited only to find out it's just gas & on the other hand I don't want to be feeling by baby this whole time & not know it.  Just sitting here thinking I have bad gas.  A lot of women on my msg board have started feeling their babies moving around.  I'm feeling a little behind.  I'm the pregnant woman who won't know it's the baby until I get a strong kick!  Which sucks bc I don't want to miss out on all these little moments.  Oh I hope I feel the flutters again.  Even if it is gas, it's gas bc of my baby, lol.  So I'll just smile anyway.  Ok, I'm rambling now, so I must stop. 

This hip pain....

Has been in full force today.  My hips have a dull ache that will not go away.  Should this really be happening this early?  Well I guess it is possible, I'm almost halfway to the finish line.  But still.  This worries me, no telling what this body of mine will feel like as the months go on. 

On another note.  I just need to make it thru tomorrow, then it's time to see my LO again.  I'm so excited.  I can't wait to see this baby dance around again.  I love watching the waves, summersaults & wiggling.  It's the cutest thing.  And please o please, I hope s/he isn't shy & we get a peek!!!

Feeling........

Today I'm feeling big.  I am wearing a flowing lace top w/dress pants & cute sweater.  The outfit is cute, but I feel like I look huge.  Btn that & my tired eyes, I'm not feeling my fancy self today.  I bought the top bc it's flowy & it's sooooo dang comfy.  But I just don't like the look now that it's on my body.  Here is the look...

I only have two flowy tops, I do not think I'll be buying anymore.  I like the tops that fit & show my belly better.  I still look big in them, but it's a different look.

3 days to go!!!!

I'm so very excited.  In 3 days (19th, I don't count the current day or the day of the event!!! LOL) I will hopefully know whether this LO is a boy or a girl.  I wish the appointment was today.  I really want to know.  Not to mention that is the only question ppl seem to be asking me these days.  Oh & how I feel.  But mostly, what are you having?  Geeeze, so impatient, LOL.  I have been ordered to inform my family/friends IMMEDIATELY after finding out.  I will have to have a talk w/LO the morning of the appointment & beg for cooperation, otherwise a whole mes of ppl will be totally disappointed.  I think the names have been settled on though.  Well a girl's name yes, boy's name there are two options.  These are the names I love.

girl = Suri Lillian Rae
boy = Avery James Amir or Cameron James Amir (I'm leaning in the direction of Avery.)

Love these bedding sets!!

We still have no idea if this LO is a boy or girl, so to be on the safe side we've chosen bedding that we like for each.  I'm not into the traditional colors for boy/girl.  I like things to be a little different, so here's what I'm thinking.

for a boy

for a girl



I'm totally in love with both.  The nursery won't be done until after the move, but I like to be prepared.  Now if next Friday (19th) could just come!  So anxious to find out the sex of this LO!!!

18wks & excitement, lol. Well kind of.

So today I thought I would be extra cute going to work.  I underestimated this belly & how it works w/my clothes.  I decided to wear one of my cute chunky belts w/my dress.  I looked in the mirror & thought...that girl is CUTE!!!!  Yeah, so this cute girl is sitting @ her desk, stands up & the button holding the buckle to my freakin belt pops off, lol.  I had to take the belt off, turn it upside down so my "girls" could hide the mess.  I will be back in the stores this weekend buying bigger belts.

On to today's positive

This morning we had another appointment.  We were able to see our little one again!!!  I was hoping to find out the sex, but this little one only wanted to show his/her butt, LOL.  A cute little butt, although that is not what mommy was looking for today.  Oh well.  The doctor said the baby is healthy & growing well, so I'm ok with that.  Hopefully at our next appt (19wk anatomy scan) this little one will be willing to show more than booty, LOL.  I'm totally in love.  I can tell, this IS my child.

I am no longer a person, just a belly.

The following happened to me in just one hour @ work.

1st One of my co-workers palmed my belly & gave it a little shake.
2nd I'm in the hall & I hold the door for a lady.  Her:  Obless your heart.  How long do you have?  Me:  I'm just 4mos.  Her:  OMG, are you having twins?  Me:  No, there is just one baby in here.  Her:  WOW!!!!
3rd  I'm in line in the cafe & I order a cheeseburger.  The lady in front of me says, How do you know that baby wants a cheeseburger?
4th  I'm paying for my food in the cafe.  The cashier says, I can't believe how much you've changed in the last week.  The lady in line behind me says, how far along are you?  I say 4mos.  She likes OMG, are you having twins?  I say no.  Then she proceeds to tell me how she has 3 kids & I won't make it thru delivery w/o an epidural.

This can't be a preview of what is to come.  I was able to stomach it today, but I know that I can't make it through the rest of my pregnancy with things like this occuring.

Birth...

I've been thinking about this off/on a lot.  I know that the end result of pregnancy is the birth of your baby.  Wellllll, I was thinking, can this kid go to college from in here?  LOL.  I do not know HOW I am going to go throught labor/delivery.  Just thinking about it makes me want to crawl under a rock.  Knowing that something the size of a watermelon has to come out of my va jay jay...OMG.  I don't wanna play.  Maybe I can sleep through it & someone tell me how it went.  I'm hoping that over time my anxiety about this will fade, but knowing myself..that is highly unlikely. 

15wks today!!!

I have no idea where the time is going.  I guess it's easier to go by because my weeks change on Wednesday.  Whatever the reason, feels like my pregnancy is just going.  I was thinking to myself that in 5wks I will be halfway to the finish line!!!  Yippy, LOL.  That thought is very exciting, but at the same time makes me very very nervous.  I think I'm done with this post.  Revisiting those thoughts has opened a can of worms.....

My 1st entry.....

I've seen a lot of blogs & thought to myself.  Hmmmm, why not?  I may not have the most to say or be the funniest, but oh well, I'll go for it anyway.  I'm a 20 something young women, who asks herself everyday "Can I really do this?"  As you can tell by my title, I am totally an unexpected mom.  Well, mom to be.  Today I am 14w6d pregnant.  Often I wonder what have I gotten myself into?  LOL.  Please do not misunderstand.  I am totally in love with the little bun in my oven & can't wait to meet this baby.  But I do have my doubts about myself, my abilities, natural instincts & everything else.  I worry on a daily basis if I'm doing the right thing, eating the right thing, sleeping enough.  I worry about every little twinge I feel, or don't feel.  Wonder if my baby is ok.  I guess these are all the things that go along with being pregnant for the 1st time & the anticipation of motherhood.  Hmmmmmmm, Can I really do this?