On to today's positive

This morning we had another appointment.  We were able to see our little one again!!!  I was hoping to find out the sex, but this little one only wanted to show his/her butt, LOL.  A cute little butt, although that is not what mommy was looking for today.  Oh well.  The doctor said the baby is healthy & growing well, so I'm ok with that.  Hopefully at our next appt (19wk anatomy scan) this little one will be willing to show more than booty, LOL.  I'm totally in love.  I can tell, this IS my child.

I am no longer a person, just a belly.

The following happened to me in just one hour @ work.

1st One of my co-workers palmed my belly & gave it a little shake.
2nd I'm in the hall & I hold the door for a lady.  Her:  Obless your heart.  How long do you have?  Me:  I'm just 4mos.  Her:  OMG, are you having twins?  Me:  No, there is just one baby in here.  Her:  WOW!!!!
3rd  I'm in line in the cafe & I order a cheeseburger.  The lady in front of me says, How do you know that baby wants a cheeseburger?
4th  I'm paying for my food in the cafe.  The cashier says, I can't believe how much you've changed in the last week.  The lady in line behind me says, how far along are you?  I say 4mos.  She likes OMG, are you having twins?  I say no.  Then she proceeds to tell me how she has 3 kids & I won't make it thru delivery w/o an epidural.

This can't be a preview of what is to come.  I was able to stomach it today, but I know that I can't make it through the rest of my pregnancy with things like this occuring.

Birth...

I've been thinking about this off/on a lot.  I know that the end result of pregnancy is the birth of your baby.  Wellllll, I was thinking, can this kid go to college from in here?  LOL.  I do not know HOW I am going to go throught labor/delivery.  Just thinking about it makes me want to crawl under a rock.  Knowing that something the size of a watermelon has to come out of my va jay jay...OMG.  I don't wanna play.  Maybe I can sleep through it & someone tell me how it went.  I'm hoping that over time my anxiety about this will fade, but knowing myself..that is highly unlikely. 

15wks today!!!

I have no idea where the time is going.  I guess it's easier to go by because my weeks change on Wednesday.  Whatever the reason, feels like my pregnancy is just going.  I was thinking to myself that in 5wks I will be halfway to the finish line!!!  Yippy, LOL.  That thought is very exciting, but at the same time makes me very very nervous.  I think I'm done with this post.  Revisiting those thoughts has opened a can of worms.....

My 1st entry.....

I've seen a lot of blogs & thought to myself.  Hmmmm, why not?  I may not have the most to say or be the funniest, but oh well, I'll go for it anyway.  I'm a 20 something young women, who asks herself everyday "Can I really do this?"  As you can tell by my title, I am totally an unexpected mom.  Well, mom to be.  Today I am 14w6d pregnant.  Often I wonder what have I gotten myself into?  LOL.  Please do not misunderstand.  I am totally in love with the little bun in my oven & can't wait to meet this baby.  But I do have my doubts about myself, my abilities, natural instincts & everything else.  I worry on a daily basis if I'm doing the right thing, eating the right thing, sleeping enough.  I worry about every little twinge I feel, or don't feel.  Wonder if my baby is ok.  I guess these are all the things that go along with being pregnant for the 1st time & the anticipation of motherhood.  Hmmmmmmm, Can I really do this?